hello!
i am getting ready for the NYE night, always one of my favorite celebratory holidays, and decided a recap is in order to pay my respects to everything that 2012 brought my way.
places i've been in 2012:
california: los angeles, lake tahoe, san diego, san francisco, and everywhere in between.
nevada: reno
utah: salt lake city
wyoming: south
colorado: denver
new mexico
arizona
kansas
oklahoma
texas: dallas--twice
louisanna: baton rouge, new orleans
alabama: gulf shores
georgia: atlanta, athens, statesboro, colombus, lake oconee
florida: tallahassee, alligator point, appalachiacola, mexico beach, miami
music i've seen:
Snowlive with Will in Lake Tahoe (Soulive, Matisyahu, George Porter Jr., Luther Dickonson)
Skrillex with Mae at the LA Live Center in Los Angeles
Hang Out Music Festival in Gulf Shores::RHCP, Flaming Lips, Jack White, Rebelution, Gary Clark Jr., Dr. Dog, Alabama Shakes, Devil Makes Three, etc etc etc=Phenom wknd!!
Toubab Krewe in Tallahassee
Loutus in Tallahassee
accomplishments/failures::
survived 4 blood transfusions and internal bleeding
goals for 2013:
2012 was a great year overall. It started with me deciding to move from Los Angeles to be closer to home and living in the same area as Will. A catalyst in this decision was the removal of an over a decade long friend of mine who was causing lots of harm in my life, mentally, fiscally, and overall. He was my roommate at the time and bailed on me leaving me owing a large amt of money, and no one can afford to live in LA under those circumstances! but you win some you loose some, i am happy with my decision to be living here in Tallahassee.
after LA, i lived in Lake Tahoe for about a month, then will and I moved him and our belongings to Tally. It's been great here, i took it easy for a few months and traveled a little more to various places, and then got a real job during late July.
....finish later
Monday, December 31, 2012
Friday, July 27, 2012
so He also loves the bow that is stable
“Your children are not your children.
They are sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you.
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For thir souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the make upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness.
For even as He loves the arrow that flies, so He also loves the bow that is stable.”
― Khalil Gibran
this is so comforting to me. Khalil's words always are.
They are sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you.
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For thir souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the make upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness.
For even as He loves the arrow that flies, so He also loves the bow that is stable.”
― Khalil Gibran
this is so comforting to me. Khalil's words always are.
infinite, and He bends
man, i have been on perma vacation since, well really about 1.5 years before that last post..
i definitely should have re-capped before now, 2 jobs and 3,000 miles across the country later....
..and that's the end of my apology. the last few (6) months that i've been #NomadikNation (shout-out::Ashlea and Diolis!) have been-- SUPER fun, filled with adventure, and were much, MUCHH appreciated.
Some of my adventures took place in:
Arizona >>Nice early morning scenery, but also the state I probably paid the least attention to as I was too wrapped up in my Leaving Los Angeles thoughts and emotions.
New Mexico>>Better the first time across the country--disappointing restaurant this time around.
Texas {Dallas} >> Stayed with Julia and lurrved it. Not 150 degrees, Will and Juls loved each other, it was a great trip.
Louisana>>Stayed the weekend in New Orleans with the Coston's and our little traveling crew the wknd before Mardi Gras--Perfect wknd with perfect hosts, stayed in great spot. Most fun stop on that trip.
Alabama>>Nothing exciting until we returned to Gulf Shores, Alabama in May for Hangout 2012 {Which was INCREDIBLE--experienced official best show moment of my entire run there with my darling seester, Carolina, and Will.}
GA>>Stayed for a couple days before flying out to {Had an AWESOME surprise visit from the soon-to-be Smiths', Mindy, and Mary in Atlanta at Carol's Cafe, where we were lucky enough to have Delia as our server.}
Lake Tahoe, CA >>5 weeks__Jan/Feb..it was wonderfulll. saw some of the most beautiful sights I've ever witnessed with my own eyes.
Reno, NV>>Met Luther Dickonson, Eric Krasno, The Evan's Brothers, gambled for first real time.
Utah>>awkward.
Wyoming>>Wish we would have gone further North.
Colorado>>AH. 2nd place fav on the 2nd cross country road trip. Denver was great.
Kansas>>Insanely boring.
OK>>Saw a beautiful sunset..haha kind of rushed through that state.
Dallas>>Stayed with Juls again, always ++fun++
Baton Rouge>>Fav stop on this trip! Stayed with Collier, such a good/fun host. Best Food Award.
GA>>Statesboro wasss... well, Statesboro.
FL>>LANDED<<
Miami>>Another Coston+Matt+Fun others trip. best trip of my summertimee
numerous parks, beaches, pups, lakes, tears, smiles, national forests, kayaking adventures, 25th bdays, weddings, trips home, stops, new friends & dissolved friends, concerts, 4 blood transfusions and an endoscopy, and other struggles and triumhps later....
i'm living in Tallahassee, now. { love it } and it was heartbreaking to move from Los Angeles, thanks for asking.
i have job i love. visitors basically every weekend. a beautiful house, balcony garden, and dog that lives here too {with Ely}. and i've been lucky enough to see so many people that are important to me quite often lately. it all works out, those are the reasons i am back here anways, right?? :)
i miiight post pictures. most likely won't, but maaybe.
i definitely should have re-capped before now, 2 jobs and 3,000 miles across the country later....
..and that's the end of my apology. the last few (6) months that i've been #NomadikNation (shout-out::Ashlea and Diolis!) have been-- SUPER fun, filled with adventure, and were much, MUCHH appreciated.
Some of my adventures took place in:
Arizona >>Nice early morning scenery, but also the state I probably paid the least attention to as I was too wrapped up in my Leaving Los Angeles thoughts and emotions.
New Mexico>>Better the first time across the country--disappointing restaurant this time around.
Texas {Dallas} >> Stayed with Julia and lurrved it. Not 150 degrees, Will and Juls loved each other, it was a great trip.
Louisana>>Stayed the weekend in New Orleans with the Coston's and our little traveling crew the wknd before Mardi Gras--Perfect wknd with perfect hosts, stayed in great spot. Most fun stop on that trip.
Alabama>>Nothing exciting until we returned to Gulf Shores, Alabama in May for Hangout 2012 {Which was INCREDIBLE--experienced official best show moment of my entire run there with my darling seester, Carolina, and Will.}
GA>>Stayed for a couple days before flying out to {Had an AWESOME surprise visit from the soon-to-be Smiths', Mindy, and Mary in Atlanta at Carol's Cafe, where we were lucky enough to have Delia as our server.}
Lake Tahoe, CA >>5 weeks__Jan/Feb..it was wonderfulll. saw some of the most beautiful sights I've ever witnessed with my own eyes.
Reno, NV>>Met Luther Dickonson, Eric Krasno, The Evan's Brothers, gambled for first real time.
Utah>>awkward.
Wyoming>>Wish we would have gone further North.
Colorado>>AH. 2nd place fav on the 2nd cross country road trip. Denver was great.
Kansas>>Insanely boring.
OK>>Saw a beautiful sunset..haha kind of rushed through that state.
Dallas>>Stayed with Juls again, always ++fun++
Baton Rouge>>Fav stop on this trip! Stayed with Collier, such a good/fun host. Best Food Award.
GA>>Statesboro wasss... well, Statesboro.
FL>>LANDED<<
Miami>>Another Coston+Matt+Fun others trip. best trip of my summertimee
numerous parks, beaches, pups, lakes, tears, smiles, national forests, kayaking adventures, 25th bdays, weddings, trips home, stops, new friends & dissolved friends, concerts, 4 blood transfusions and an endoscopy, and other struggles and triumhps later....
i'm living in Tallahassee, now. { love it } and it was heartbreaking to move from Los Angeles, thanks for asking.
i have job i love. visitors basically every weekend. a beautiful house, balcony garden, and dog that lives here too {with Ely}. and i've been lucky enough to see so many people that are important to me quite often lately. it all works out, those are the reasons i am back here anways, right?? :)
i miiight post pictures. most likely won't, but maaybe.
Monday, January 30, 2012
There's a feeling I get when I look to the west...
... And my spirit is crying for leaving
-zep
Last night in LA! I can't believe it. I'm ending right were I began in maes backyard. So many good times here in california, it's the hardest place I've ever had to leave. I'm excited about the journey that awaits, always, but it has proved to be difficult to leave a place where I am actually very happy.
I should have some downtime to write and post and breathe during my stay in truckee next month. Tomorrow will and I head for Albuquerque, Dallas Wednesday, Nola Thursday and Friday, GA sat! Cannot wait for Nola.... Ah!
Xoxo
Jessica
-zep
Last night in LA! I can't believe it. I'm ending right were I began in maes backyard. So many good times here in california, it's the hardest place I've ever had to leave. I'm excited about the journey that awaits, always, but it has proved to be difficult to leave a place where I am actually very happy.
I should have some downtime to write and post and breathe during my stay in truckee next month. Tomorrow will and I head for Albuquerque, Dallas Wednesday, Nola Thursday and Friday, GA sat! Cannot wait for Nola.... Ah!
Xoxo
Jessica
Saturday, December 17, 2011
saturday night
Sometimes a big city is the best place to be when you want to feel alone.
... I thought to myself as I drove patiently along the 10 this morning after relieving myself of the most ridiculous guest I have ever had the displeasure of entertaining.
tonight I am enjoying the company of myself. truthfully, myself and my new iPhone. what an amazing piece of technology. the convenience of this device is the nicest thing technology has ever provided me, personally. thank you kindly, apple.
I am also thankful for the real women I've had the pleasure of knowing, loving, and learning from throughout my life.
Xoxoxo
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Los Angeles, How about it
Recently I've been doing a lot of pro/con-ing on "Los Angeles," and I figured using this blog to sort out my thoughts might serve as helpful to myself and others wondering what's going through my head these days :)
So, after some contemplation and editing, here's my LA Pro/Con Comparison. These are in order of Favorite to Most Favorite, and Annoying to Super Annoying.
PRO
Radio Stations--Best Radio Stations in the US, has to be! Every morning I turn on my car prepared to be crunked out by any genre of music. Rarely fails. 92.3 in the morning, 93.5, 101.5, and also 97.1 when and if I'm feeling like Today's Hot Hits
Discounts--I abuse the HELL out of Groupon, LivingSocial, AmazonLocal, etc. One of the few e-mails groups I belong to, I'm purchasing at least once a week. Everyone here uses the WWW and Yelp reviews are taken super seriously. There are massive amounts of options for any occasion or fling, as well a few businesses in each and every category imaginable, so competition for consumer loyalty is fierce. It's great to be a customer in Los Angeles!
Music--Loving the West Coast funky styley music. Super chill, further from the Bluesy roots I'm used to from the South and will always love the most, but I'm loving my exposure to the natural, laid back meets electronica meets reggae meetsfolky (ok, I'll stop) mix up that's going on here.
Citizens of LA--The most fascinating group of people I have ever lived among. Living/Working here, you encounter so many people that are responsible for a lot of what's going on in the "here & now" in the US. Although I'm not always an active member of "here & now," I will always give props when they're due, and the majority of the Citizens of LA keep their hustle steady and play it forward always. One of the better things about living among so many "stars" and "celebrities"--you're not always impressed on a star-struck level when you run into said "hot-shots," because everyone is involved with the Industry and everyone is "someone" here. It's still random and exciting!, just not noteworthy every time someone like Patti Stanger, Millionaire Matchmaker, comes into your workplace.
My Apartment--Ahhh, it's so cute! I love it. I must say, I've put a good amount of searching and effort into getting my little nest set up the way I want, and it's coming together piece by piece.
My Job--Best job! It's truly a blessing to work for people you look up to, respect, and learn from daily. Working for Nilou Ghodsi at Heist on Abbot Kinney is slightly different from working for Tracy & Traci at Sunglasses On Main in Statesboro or Valdosta (HA! TO SAY THE LEAST!) I'm learning the ins and outs of what it takes to run a successful business, and I couldn't be more grateful for the little tips I'm picking up along the way.
Mother Nature--Mountains, Valleys, Beaches, Parks, outdoor activities, happy pups everywhere, families from every background and ethnicity, different languages heard on every block, Trees, green grass, green bud (what, you thought I was going to write on the topic of things I'm grateful out here on the West Coast and cowardly leave out the amazingness I get to enjoy on the reg? No way, Rude!)--The Big Lady has really outdone herself here in LA. Not all of LA, it's true that parts of Los Angeles County are similar to parking lots with ridiculous shoe stores (Roseanne Barr--she has an interesting perspective on LA as well, hilarious!). Luckily, I spend about 75% of my time in Santa Monica and Venice. These particular parts of LA are amazing from sunrise to sunset, and back to sunrise again.
CON
Litter--There are plenty of people concerned with keeping the environment in check around these parts, but keeping LA clean is not an easy task. I see trash being thrown and trash being picked up around the rate of 5:3. Disappointing, we could all do a little better!
Citizens of LA--Although they are among my favorite group of people ^^, sometimes it can get a little much. Ego's run high, wallets never run as deep as they try to appear, and for someone who is not the most trusting individual (Ahhem, moi), it can be hard to establish solid relationships with fellow LAiens.
Traffic--I bet most people would assume traffic would fall closer to "MOST ANNOYING THING EVER" as Los Angeles has quite a bad rep in the traffic department. It's not ideal, but most importantly it's just not that bad. I mean, there are massive amounts of LocAls (Do you guys notice/appreciate all the LA puns and remixes I'm throwing out there?) who would probably disagree with me, for sure. Most of them probably work 8-5 Mon-Fri. I work 11-7 Sunday-Thursday. You win some you loose some, Don't hate me cause you ain't me homieee. My hours help me dodge the infamous "LA Traffic" and for that, I am grateful and have a lower stress level.
Rent!--Dammmn! Enough said.
No Visible Stars at Night--This gets harder and harder, especially after leaving Lake Tahoe this time around. I've always appreciated the stars. The pollution around these parts is pretty out of hand and getting in the way of my God given right to view the stars! Mer!
Cancer warnings/General uncleanliness--I was at an apartment building that had signs posted informing the residents that their risk of cancer was higher because of living in that area. YIKES. The general nasty stankness and uncleanliness of certain situations you find yourself in are too much for comfort sometimes!
Distance from the majority of the people I love--I miss all my people! My closest friends are spread from NYC, Dallas, Atlanta/Georgia, California, to Colorado, Lea is jet setting all over the US these days, etc., so it's not like anywhere is going to take me back to 2007, but damn if I don't wish something could!!
F.I.L.L.A.
So, after some contemplation and editing, here's my LA Pro/Con Comparison. These are in order of Favorite to Most Favorite, and Annoying to Super Annoying.
PRO
Radio Stations--Best Radio Stations in the US, has to be! Every morning I turn on my car prepared to be crunked out by any genre of music. Rarely fails. 92.3 in the morning, 93.5, 101.5, and also 97.1 when and if I'm feeling like Today's Hot Hits
Discounts--I abuse the HELL out of Groupon, LivingSocial, AmazonLocal, etc. One of the few e-mails groups I belong to, I'm purchasing at least once a week. Everyone here uses the WWW and Yelp reviews are taken super seriously. There are massive amounts of options for any occasion or fling, as well a few businesses in each and every category imaginable, so competition for consumer loyalty is fierce. It's great to be a customer in Los Angeles!
Music--Loving the West Coast funky styley music. Super chill, further from the Bluesy roots I'm used to from the South and will always love the most, but I'm loving my exposure to the natural, laid back meets electronica meets reggae meets
Citizens of LA--The most fascinating group of people I have ever lived among. Living/Working here, you encounter so many people that are responsible for a lot of what's going on in the "here & now" in the US. Although I'm not always an active member of "here & now," I will always give props when they're due, and the majority of the Citizens of LA keep their hustle steady and play it forward always. One of the better things about living among so many "stars" and "celebrities"--you're not always impressed on a star-struck level when you run into said "hot-shots," because everyone is involved with the Industry and everyone is "someone" here. It's still random and exciting!, just not noteworthy every time someone like Patti Stanger, Millionaire Matchmaker, comes into your workplace.
My Apartment--Ahhh, it's so cute! I love it. I must say, I've put a good amount of searching and effort into getting my little nest set up the way I want, and it's coming together piece by piece.
My Job--Best job! It's truly a blessing to work for people you look up to, respect, and learn from daily. Working for Nilou Ghodsi at Heist on Abbot Kinney is slightly different from working for Tracy & Traci at Sunglasses On Main in Statesboro or Valdosta (HA! TO SAY THE LEAST!) I'm learning the ins and outs of what it takes to run a successful business, and I couldn't be more grateful for the little tips I'm picking up along the way.
Mother Nature--Mountains, Valleys, Beaches, Parks, outdoor activities, happy pups everywhere, families from every background and ethnicity, different languages heard on every block, Trees, green grass, green bud (what, you thought I was going to write on the topic of things I'm grateful out here on the West Coast and cowardly leave out the amazingness I get to enjoy on the reg? No way, Rude!)--The Big Lady has really outdone herself here in LA. Not all of LA, it's true that parts of Los Angeles County are similar to parking lots with ridiculous shoe stores (Roseanne Barr--she has an interesting perspective on LA as well, hilarious!). Luckily, I spend about 75% of my time in Santa Monica and Venice. These particular parts of LA are amazing from sunrise to sunset, and back to sunrise again.
CON
Litter--There are plenty of people concerned with keeping the environment in check around these parts, but keeping LA clean is not an easy task. I see trash being thrown and trash being picked up around the rate of 5:3. Disappointing, we could all do a little better!
Citizens of LA--Although they are among my favorite group of people ^^, sometimes it can get a little much. Ego's run high, wallets never run as deep as they try to appear, and for someone who is not the most trusting individual (Ahhem, moi), it can be hard to establish solid relationships with fellow LAiens.
Traffic--I bet most people would assume traffic would fall closer to "MOST ANNOYING THING EVER" as Los Angeles has quite a bad rep in the traffic department. It's not ideal, but most importantly it's just not that bad. I mean, there are massive amounts of LocAls (Do you guys notice/appreciate all the LA puns and remixes I'm throwing out there?) who would probably disagree with me, for sure. Most of them probably work 8-5 Mon-Fri. I work 11-7 Sunday-Thursday. You win some you loose some, Don't hate me cause you ain't me homieee. My hours help me dodge the infamous "LA Traffic" and for that, I am grateful and have a lower stress level.
Rent!--Dammmn! Enough said.
No Visible Stars at Night--This gets harder and harder, especially after leaving Lake Tahoe this time around. I've always appreciated the stars. The pollution around these parts is pretty out of hand and getting in the way of my God given right to view the stars! Mer!
Cancer warnings/General uncleanliness--I was at an apartment building that had signs posted informing the residents that their risk of cancer was higher because of living in that area. YIKES. The general nasty stankness and uncleanliness of certain situations you find yourself in are too much for comfort sometimes!
Distance from the majority of the people I love--I miss all my people! My closest friends are spread from NYC, Dallas, Atlanta/Georgia, California, to Colorado, Lea is jet setting all over the US these days, etc., so it's not like anywhere is going to take me back to 2007, but damn if I don't wish something could!!
F.I.L.L.A.
Monday, August 22, 2011
mercury retrograde
is seriously the worst. my communication has been off with plenty of people in my life, especially within the last 24 hours. and especially with my boyfriend who i've always been happy with and never questioned. now i am.
everyone i was around today was off...slow, bad mood, bad news, lack of communication with important people, no energy whatsoever, just ready for the day to end. at boot camp only 5 people showed up! i was 80% not going to go after waking up, but i finally pushed myself out of bed. work was soooo long. ugh. not talking with will was really hard. but i don't know. it's like talking doesn't matter anyways because we are getting no where. it's so hard to get him to talk sometimes, i wonder how long i can go on like that, being the expressive person that i am most of the time and depending on an open flow of communication with people closest to me.
i love him. i think he's awesome. i truly wish him the best in the world, and hope to be that someday, but this is so frustrating...
thankful for the customer that shed some light on this situation. if anything else, these last 4 days of mercury in retrograde can't end soon enough. i'm totally blaming everything going on in the world on this. ha. who cares
everyone i was around today was off...slow, bad mood, bad news, lack of communication with important people, no energy whatsoever, just ready for the day to end. at boot camp only 5 people showed up! i was 80% not going to go after waking up, but i finally pushed myself out of bed. work was soooo long. ugh. not talking with will was really hard. but i don't know. it's like talking doesn't matter anyways because we are getting no where. it's so hard to get him to talk sometimes, i wonder how long i can go on like that, being the expressive person that i am most of the time and depending on an open flow of communication with people closest to me.
i love him. i think he's awesome. i truly wish him the best in the world, and hope to be that someday, but this is so frustrating...
thankful for the customer that shed some light on this situation. if anything else, these last 4 days of mercury in retrograde can't end soon enough. i'm totally blaming everything going on in the world on this. ha. who cares
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